beliefs are the root cause of agony (Introduction)

by whyamihere , Mumbai, Wednesday, February 02, 2011, 18:05 (5043 days ago)

I M FORCED TO COME HERE ONLY BECAUSE OF THE CURIOSITY OF MY EXISTENCE. AND I SUPPOSE THAT THIS WEBSITE IS TRYING TO SOLVE THIS QUESTION.
WELL WHEN I WAS BORN I JUST EXISTED FOR SOME DAYS TILL I CAME BECAME AWARE OF MY EXISTENCE FROM THE WORLD AROUND ME. IT IMPOSED ON ME EVERYTHING I WAS I AM AND I WILL BE. I ACCEPTED SOME THINGS AND REJECTED A FEW AS PER MY WILL AND EGO SATISFACTION.
THIS LED TO DEVELOPMENT OF THE EGO AND I STARTED BECOMING FAKE FROM NATURAL.
I KNOW ALL THE ABOVE ARE MY BELIEFS OF MY BEING AND MY EXISTENCE BUT I HAVE NO OTHER WAY TO EXPLAIN THE SAME.
MY INDEPENDENT THINKING WAS A RESULT OF MY SELF GRATIFYING AND EGO BOOSTING PRE CONCEIVED NOTIONS WHICH SUITED ME AND MY EXISTENCE WHICH GAVE ME MY SPACE AND SOMETHING TO BE PROUD ABOUT AND THE REASON OF MY EXISTENCE.
THEM CAME INTO MY LIFE MY EDUCATIONAL AND RELIGIONISTS TEACHERS WHICH IMPOSED UPON MY THINKING THE MORALS AND PRICIPLES WHICH WERE ACCEPTED BY THE SOCEITY AND INCREASED THE PROBABILITY OF PEACEFUL EXISTENCE OF LIVING RACE OR THE LIVING FRATERNITY.
WITH THESE IMPOSED MORALS I BEGAN TO LIVE A LIFE WHICH ONCE AGAIN HELPED ME TO SELF GRATIFY MY EXISTENCE BY NOT HARMING THE OTHERS AND NATURE. BEING ACCEPTED IN THE SOCEITY AS A GENTLEMAN I NOW WANT TO KNOW WHY I AM SO GOOD TO THE SOCEITY OR WHY AM I RESTRICTING MYSELF TO BE GOOD AS PER THE NORMS OF THE SOCEITY. i AM FEELING THAT I AM THE SLAVE OF MY BELIEFS WHICH ARE IMPOSED UPON ME BY THE NATURE THROUGH VARIOUS MEDIA. ALL MY ACTIONS AND THOUGHTS ARE INSPIRED BY MY BELIEFS AND THE NEED TO GRATIFY MY EXISTENCE. I THINK THAT A CHAMELEON WHICH AHANGES COLORS AS PER THE SURROUNDINGS IN WHICH IT IS IS THE APT EXAMPLE OF THE LIFE WE ARE ALL LIVING.SO THE BELIEFS OF ATHEISM, AGNOSTICISM OR THEISM ARE ALL THE PRODUCTS OF OUR PAST AND IF AN OPEN MIND IS APPLIED TO THE CONCEPT WE WILL COME TO KNOW THAT WE ARE STILL THE SAME ZERO KNOWLEDGE SELF GRATIFYING PESTS SHOOTING THE ARROWS IN THE AIR WITHOUT ANY AIM.